When I daydream about the future I see such a full life for John. I see him doing the things he loves – going to GA football games, fishing, riding around in his truck, mowing the lawn. (Well, he doesn’t really love that, but right now it seems like the best thing in the world to him.)
Then my thoughts return to reality, which is still hard to believe is our reality, and my mind is immediately forced back into thinking about all the hurdles he has to go through to get to those wonderful days to come.
Today we talked to the nurse at Duke. I basically told her that John’s not going to be able to keep going like he is for much longer. We are trying to be patient and wait for the evaluation to be scheduled, but it’s going on two weeks now. She told us that the process is held up right now with the insurance side of things. The insurance companies have different contracts with hospitals, and they have to make sure the contracts are being followed. I asked her how much longer that should take, and she told me there’s really no way of knowing.
So this is hurdle number one – getting the evaluation scheduled with no hiccups from the insurance company. In the meantime I have been praying each day for John’s heart to sustain him, for him to have strength to get through the day, and for him to be able to rest at night.
This is going to be the longest and hardest thing I’ve ever endured, and it is just the beginning. I am going to have to surrender each day’s new challenges to the Lord over and over again.