As I’ve mentioned before, each day brings new thoughts as I mull-over and contemplate this journey we’re going to begin soon for a new heart for John.
A few days ago, strangely for the first time, it came to me that this new heart is coming from another person. I don’t know why that reality didn’t sink in sooner, but ever since then God has laid this person and their family on my heart, and I think about them several times throughout my days.
It’s a very odd feeling to pray for a heart, a healthy heart, to come soon so that John can be better and live his life to the fullest, knowing that to give a heart is to take one away. How do I reconcile that in my head? How do I thank someone for a gift that is beyond words? How do I show gratitude and humility and complete and utter awe?
I have had to rest on God’s truth in Isaiah 55:8-9, “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.”
I know that God’s ways are always perfect. I will never understand them until He explains them to me in heaven. For right now, though, I am going to be humbly grateful for this opportunity that John might have for a new heart, and I am going to pray for the family from whom it will be given.
I pray that God begins now to work in their lives to build them up, give them strength, and prepare them for the years ahead. I pray that the person who will donate his heart is a Christian so that he can experience eternal life and God’s love forever. I pray that God wraps His arms around this family and brings them more comfort and love than they ever imagined. I pray that they will know that John and I do not take this lightly and that we are forever grateful to them.
I also pray that when it is over, John and I will never forget the love this family will show us through their donation, and that we will never forget from where the Lord has brought us.