It started on Pinterest. I’m semi-addicted. Can you relate? Each night now my wind down time is going through new pins of the people I follow to make sure I didn’t miss anything.
That’s when I saw this pin:
Really? I am a INFJ (Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging) or I have introverted intuition with extroverted feeling.
But am I really artistic and creative? Is my world full of hidden meanings and possibilities?
I have taken countless personality tests and temperament quizzes and spiritual gifts analyses. I am quite in tuned with my inner self and the places I shine along with the places I hide. So I thought . . .
I clicked over to the website just to see what else it had to say about this INFJ . . . and my mind came together to a single point. Finally I made sense. Everything written described me, even the innermost parts that I can’t verbalize.
But it’s what I read next that helped me to understand a struggle I have lived with for a long time – only 1-3% of people are INFJs.
You see, rarely do I feel understood. Even as a little girl I felt like I lived in a different world with different thoughts and a different view than the people who lived around me.
I always felt different. Probably not in an overtly weird way, even though I’m sure some people think I’m weird. I am able to mold myself pretty easily into what’s expected of me. But in a something-just-isn’t-the-same-about-me way.
This affects my decisions. I’m always second-guessing myself. It affects my convictions. I care too much about what other people think of me. It affects my relationships. It is hard for me to accept that you really “get it”.
I am exhausted living this way.
My scavenger hunt on Pinterest led me to further “evidence” that I’m just as I should be – who God created me to be. I’m a real personality – INFJ – and I’m unique – I’m one of 1-3%. I have permission to continue being misunderstood or different or weird. Through it God wants to use me.
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