Chronic Illness Gave Us New Lenses

There are experiences in life that when you are going through them all you dream about is escape. Everything on the outside of your small window seems idyllic and tranquil and unfair. You wonder how you got stuck behind the closed doors and why everyone else gets to stay out.

Then as time passes, and the small window cracks, you feel some of the fresh air coming in from the outside, and with it comes a new perspective. As the window opens even further you begin to forget the agony from the inside, and the time shut-in doesn’t seem so bad. You find yourself, after finally stepping outside and perusing around a while, asking, “If I could choose so, would I do it all over again?”

 My answer is that I don’t want to do it over again, but I still want the new lens that the experience gave me. I want the blessing without the reliance.

 For months the reality of death was very real to us. It became a part of our daily conversations. It became a part of our thoughts. It became a part of our plans. After feeling the rawness of mortality everything around you begins to look different and much less significant.

 This was our blessing. This was the prize of hope and a future that God gave us at the end of the day (Jeremiah 29:11). He gave us another lens to look through. A lens that reminds us:
  • Everything we see is temporary. (2 Corinthians 4:18)
  • We have eternity to look forward to. (John 14:1-4)
  • We are here to bring people to Jesus. (Matthew 28:19-20)

However, even now John and I don’t always use this new lens. As the days separate us further from our experience, we often forget about the new lens we received, and we go back to using those same old lenses that display our rights, our needs, ourselves, instead of each other.

The days we do, though, we are able to imagine the possibility of doing it all over again. We have a gift that is hard to receive without meeting Jesus in a place where all there is left is reliance on Him.

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2 responses to “Chronic Illness Gave Us New Lenses”

  1. Jacque @Mercy Found Me Avatar
    Jacque @Mercy Found Me

    Such a gift..a lens with which to see anew and wholly rely on Him. Thank you for your words and perspective. It is inspiring how you have chosen to allow this to make you new and more complete in your trust in Him…a true display and embodiment of James 1! Blessings to you!

  2. Triple Braided Avatar
    Triple Braided

    Jacque, thank you for your comment and for prompting me to read James 1. I just did, and what a blessing!

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