I knew that when I stepped outside and the air was different and the colors were changing and the sun was lower that the time would be soon.
But I didn’t know it would come this soon.
I am one month from delivering my first baby from this ever-growing belly. Even though I have known the date she is expected to arrive for almost nine months now, her arrival is still a surprise, and I find myself whispering over and over each day: Is October really next month? Is the air really crisper? Are those leaves really orange? Is the sun later to rise on purpose?
These were the signs that I looked for in anticipation. These are the signs that tell me she is almost here.
I didn’t expect these signs to be a surprise, though.
I didn’t expect them to whisper back, “You’re not ready.”
Procrastination is part of my livelihood. I say that I work better under pressure, and that may be true. Or it may just help me to feel like less of a slacker.
But two of my friends just had their babies a few weeks early (their first babies, mind you), and here I am holding a checklist that seems to grow by two for every check I make on it.
I am overwhelmed.
And then there’s that other baby I’m birthing next month. The one that’s without flesh and bones but contains the stories and secrets of my life. The one I’ve worked hard to push out for months now – and even years if you count the dirty work to make the stories.
That baby is my eBook Fall for Him: 25 Challenges from a Recovering Single. It is back from the editor and on its way to formatting so that you can see it. Every day I am consumed by thoughts for the women who will read it. My prayers are already going up to you.
So please forgive if even the expected is surprising. I’m still here trying to nest and birth.
Download a free chapter of my eBook
Fall for Him: 25 Challenges from a Recovering Single here:
Free Download – Fall for Him Chapter 1
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