I have a problem. I want to do it all. When New Year’s Day approached, and I saw all the wonderful studies and groups and challenges other bloggers were hosting, I wanted to be a part of them too. And in this post I listed all of my challenges resolutions for the year in hopes of doing it all. Sure, I hid them as challenges to not sound so cliché to have resolutions, but that’s exactly what they were – resolutions.
The day after “New Year, New Challenges” posted I remembered that I have a two month old baby. My first two month old baby.
And I remembered that we live far away from family and friends, so there’s not a whole lot of help around here.
And I remembered that my carpet hasn’t been vacuumed in a month. And I barely take a shower everyday. And I’m surviving on only a handful of hours a sleep a night.
And I remembered my One Word (which I have yet to announce to you because blogging has taken a backseat this week) is Surrender.
This year, after my year of Focus in 2012, I am going to Surrender.
So today, only ten days into the new year, I quit my challenges. Or let’s say I surrender them. Because I can’t do it all.
Surrendering anything in my life is hard for me. I like to hold on tight because I think it’s my job to do it all, make it all right, fix myself and my surroundings. This is where I try to get my worth.
I am starting with surrendering my belief that I can do it all or that I have to do it all in order to be worthy.
This is a lie from the enemy and one that I want demolished as a stronghold in my mind. My worth is not dependent on how many books I read this year or whether I only eat whole foods or even if I read the entire Bible or memorize 24 verses.
My worth hangs on the Cross. The Cross that Jesus endured. That’s how worthy I am.
And I surrender any thoughts that tell me otherwise.
Do you have a One Word for 2013? Please share with us in the comments!
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