Category: Weekend Prayers and Links

I know you’ll understand this feeling.

This past November I had a miscarriage. The baby was due in July. This past week two of my friends told me they are expecting babies. Their babies are due in August.

There are a rush of emotions that bombard you when you receive news of blessing after your same blessing became a tragedy. In my younger days, jealousy and envy would have been a part of those emotions. (How many bridesmaids dresses do I still own?) And I think that’s natural. Not good, but natural.

However, this time I can honestly say that it wasn’t jealousy or envy that I felt. Instead it was a barrage of questions, the first being:

What are you trying to teach me, Lord?

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Happy Friday, friends! There’s some great reads this week for Weekend Prayers and Links, but first for the prayer part.

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On Thursdays I go to this moms group at my church. After years and years of wanting to be a mom – like since I was five, no joke – I have surprisingly found that I don’t fit in well at moms groups. I don’t know if they think I don’t fit in as much as on the inside I don’t feel like I fit in.

The first moms group I tried out we did crafts. There is nothing at all wrong with crafts. Sometimes I get in a crafty mood. But after being with my baby all day the last thing I want to do is crafts. Instead I want to go in, plop down, veg out and talk – to real, live adult women about real life things.

I’m not sure if this is a result of my longer-than-desired season of singleness, and now being an older mom, but my perspective is just a little different. It’s almost like I’m now a single woman trapped in a married woman’s body. Does that sound crazy?

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