Right now my mind is swarming with the “could-be’s”, “should-be’s”, “ought-a-be’s, and “would-be’s” of my life. Many months ago I began earnestly praying for God to show me His visions for my life. Not just for my career, but for my marriage, my family, and my ministry. And boy did the visions start coming! Every since my mind has been flooded.
Now I feel like I have a good “ending” to my vision, but it’s the day-to-day that I’m overwhelmed with. I don’t know where to start, what decision to make first, how to deal with the logistics, and the answers to my real-life circumstances.
So I begin to find compensation myself.
- Paralysis. I become paralyzed to make any move for fear that it’s the wrong one.
- Control. I begin jumping at every opportunity even if it’s a distraction just so that my needs are met.
- Fear. I don’t trust that God knows what He’s doing or that He’s doing anything at all.
Instead of focusing solely on the ending, I hear God telling me to just focus on the right now with the motive of each decision being to accomplish “the end”. With this mindset I am not always focused on whether my day-in and day-out words, tasks, and decisions are directly connected to the visions God has given me. I am focused on whether my motive for those words, tasks, and decisions is to lead me to the visions God has given me.
“Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air.”
1 Corinthians 9:24-26
We all know that God works all things for good for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). So my daily life, even the parts that are missteps or seem completely disconnected, work to fulfill God’s visions for me if my motive, my love, is for Him.
