I’m assuming it’s because I’m seven months pregnant with a toddler at my feet that I’m nostalgic about turning 39 this year. After all, isn’t that supposed to wait until you’re 40?
But here I am a now 39-year-old woman living a 28-year-old’s life, and I can’t help but sit in disbelief that I’m entering the last year of my 30’s.
My adult life has turned out nothing like I thought it would.
Today is Five Minute Friday where writers write for only five minutes forgetting everything technical and focusing only on the inspirational. Today’s topic is: Here.
My days are spent working, learning, achieving, reaching for this Higher Calling I yearn for. Yet it doesn’t come easily. One step forward, two steps back, and I wonder where He is in all of it. Doesn’t He see my heart? Doesn’t He know my needs? Doesn’t He want to bless me?
My default looks to the right and to the left seeing all of them leaping forward toward their Higher Callings, too. Except they just keep propelling forward. No backward motion for them. Jealousy becomes my best friend. I wonder again, “Where are You?”
Then I notice the small garden that I live in with a tree or two and some azaleas growing around the corners. “I am here”, He says, “and this is your Higher Calling”.
It may not be in magazine articles or blog statistics or book contracts or speaking engagements. It may not be in name knowing or popularity, but my Higher Calling is here.
It’s in the cry that tells me my Baby Girl wants to be held. It’s in the discouraging look my husband brings home from work. It’s in the single women who meet at my house every other week for small group.
My Higher Calling is here.
So when you look around and don’t see the Higher Calling you have set for yourself, look again. Find Him here. And here will be your Higher Calling.
How does this speak to you today? What is your Higher Calling here?
