Would I trade you right now – my life for yours? I could move forward with my life with no desperate worries or fears. I could enjoy my marriage by going to dinner, taking longs walks with my husband, and going home to visit family and friends in Georgia. I could maybe have a baby or two and do what a lot of other couples do with soccer practices and dance recitals and trips to Disney World.
You would think that I would jump at the chance to give up my life right now for someone else’s life.
But I wouldn’t. Right now I am a part of a wonderful story that God is writing. I have been chosen, not by anything I am or have done, but simply by God’s infinite wisdom and design, to be a part of a miracle. Not just a miracle of physical healing, but a miracle of spiritual healing of all the people who will be touched and affected by John’s story.
If I traded with you, I would miss out on the blessing – the joy – of watching it unfold and being a part of it in such an intimate way. God has blessed me with joy during this season of my life that could otherwise paralyze me, so that I can experience His sovereignty, His peace, His healing, and His love.
“Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.
We can rejoice, too, that when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.”
So, no, I could never give up this precious gift that God has given me to see Him work firsthand. I feel nothing but honor when I wake up each morning and remember that God has chosen me to be a part of this trial, out of love, so that I can know Him personally by seeing Him work in our lives.